hello world, it's me

this infatuation is getting the best of me.

2008-07-14T13:07:29Z

grrr. i hate this. i'm so confused.

i've only known you for a month, and i'm acting all giddy around you.

we talk on the phone for hours at a time. then you don't call anymore. you don't text anymore. nothing.

then i go emo on you.

suddenly, out of the blue, you pop right in my life, just when i'm ready to let go of these feelings i have for you.

and then i see you with other girls, laughing with them, like what we usually do. do i even have a right to feel jealous when you flirt with other girls? (maybe because you do this amazingly well.)

why do i miss you so DAMN much? do i even have a right to miss you?
:'((

everytime i see you *which is like 5x a week* i just wish you knew what i feel for you...

because this infatuation is getting the best of me.

lari611 @ 2008-06-29T20:30:00

2008-06-29T12:54:19Z

1. Do you like anyone?: Yes and NO. Coz im trying to get over this stupid thing called infatuation.

2. Do they know it?: I think he has a hint.

3. Simple or complicated?: single

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

5. Bought something: Yes.

6. Gotten sick?: YES. first week in UP, i was sick.

7. Been hugged?: Yes! *roxy, wink wink ahha*

8. Felt stupid?: Loads of times...in this particular class (Bio Lec),while they were discussing about those histone proteins, those DNA wachamacalits...all i was thinking of was sisig. ahaha. go fig.

9. Talked to an ex: no exes in my book except for those x's in Math 17 :)) HAHA. so maybe i have talked to an X. in my math book. =)) HAHAHA> CORNFIELDS!

10. Missed someone: Yes yes yes. my parents, my sister...and someone...

11. Failed a test: I think i may have failed my Math 17 quiz. haha!

13. Danced: Yes. UP ANG GALING MOOOO!!!

14. Gotten your hair cut?: Nope. It's still short :))

15. Lied: Quite a few white ones.

U N I Q U E

16. Nervous habits?: I stare into space?

17. Are you double jointed?: Whaddat? I don't think so.

18. Can you roll your tongue?: Yeah... so that makes me weird?

19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: Sure.

20. Can you cross your eyes?: Yes.. wanna see?

21. Do you make your bed daily?: Yeap!

22. Do you think you are unique?: SURE.

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

23. Said "I Love you": Yes!

24. Given money to a homeless person: Yes

26. Waited all night for a phone call?: These Past 2 weeks, i have.

27. Snuck out?: No not really

28. Sat and looked at the stars?: Very beautiful.

M A N N E R S

29. Do you swear/curse?: Yes. Just did. Shet.

30. Do you ever spit?: No!

31. You cook your own food?: Yeah.

32. You do your own chores?: yeah.

33. You like beef jerky?: err not really.

35. You're happy with your life?: I still havent figured it all out yet...so, not YET.

36. You own a dog?: nah.

37. You spend your money wisely?: sometimes

38. Do you like to swim?: YES :D

39. When you get bored do you call a friend: now i do, before i dont.

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S

41. Flowers or angels?: Flowers

42. Gray or black?: Black

43. Colored or black and white photos?: colored for happy, b&w for emo.

44. Lust or love?: Love.

45. Sunrise or sunset?: Sunset

46. M&Ms or Skittles?: MM!!!

48. Staying up late or waking up early?: Staying up

49. Being hot or cold?: Cold :))

50. Winter or Fall?: Winter

51. Left or right?: Right

52. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?: 2 best friends

53. Sunshine or rain?: sunshine most of the time, but i occasionally like the rain.

more have you evers;;

Sleep in a bed of the opposite sex?: nope

Hooked up in the woods?: No!

Drank a bottle of alcohol by yourself?: Yes, recently because of debuts and stuff :)) HAHA/

Been Dumped? Nah.

Stolen money from a friend?: Never ever.

Slept naked?: shems, magkakasakit ako if i do. haha!

Been in a fist fight?: No aspirations being like Pacman.

Snuck out of your house?: Nope

Had a crush on a teacher?: yes :)) HAHAHA.

Seen someone die?: Don't want to.

Slept all day?: Yeah

Missed someone so much it hurt?: I guess.

Fallen asleep during school?: Yes.

Been lonely?: Yes Yes Yes.

Cheated in a game?: Yeah! I wanted to win in Pokemon Trading Card Game! But that was a one-time thing :)) AHAHA. look, i was a kid.

Been to the ER?: Yes.

Been in a car accident?: not really

Had detention?: Nope

Missed your first love?: wala pa akong first love. infatuation LOADS.

Cried yourself to sleep?: Yeah....

Sung in the shower?: LOADS.

Kissed a complete stranger?: EWW.

Laughed so hard you cried?: OO. =))

Cheated on a bf/gf?: Nope

Regretted hurting someone?: Yes.

Regretted loving someone?: No.

Been SUPER happy?: YES;)

on College life - so far.

2008-06-23T14:53:35Z

I was browsing thru a friends secret livejournal site *haha, not so secret to me!* and she was ranting about how college life was like HELL, for her 1st week, at least.

I told her this *and yes, this is gonna be my actual blog entry. I'm too lazy to rewrite mo thoughts on college in a different POV*:

"Don't worry, we all had our share of University woes. It's just that my adjustment was much less of a so-called-"hell" than what i imagined yours to be when you told me about this.

Mine was much like...hmm...purgatory? It was hard because I'm so close with my family and suddenly, i have to live with another family *though, they're still blood-related, my grandma and my uncle and my cousins* in a different house, in a different bed *gosh, i miss the bed i used to lie on the floor with*. It was hard because I wasn't used to inhaling the dust of manila and the smoke belched air *may adjective bang ganun? ahaha*. It was hard because I had to find people whom i could possibly hangout with for the next 4-8 years of my life (medschool pa :)). But what's nice about it was i actually found a few good people whom i can hangout with. If you call 7 people few =)) that's what Im at least thankful for :D

I ALSO CRIED myself to sleep during my first 3 nights - not because of the "government-ignored-facilities" status of UP Manila, but because of how i missed my parents and my sister. Super HOMESICK talaga ako. Haha, yes, I'm a weakling too :P"

Anyhooo. To add to that...

I actually am enjoying UP Manila. Much to my surprise, I didn't expect it to be this happy. Remember the suspension of classes because of the Typhoon Frank? I was actually hoping to go to school the next day just so I can see my blockmates again, specifically my troops (if your reading this, hello to you Roxy, Aldwin, Jake, Barron, Maki, and Meg. and sige na nga, Angelo, ikaw na rin :)). Since our Math 17 professor told us last week that he couldn't be able to attend class this Monday, we get a free cut, meaning our class was only up to 11.30 am! So we actually planned ahead and decided to watch Kung Fu Panda in UP Manila's Annex - Robinsons Place Manila :))

But sadly, the typhoon struck and planned things don't push thru. Well, at least, i get an extra day of rest - oh wait, 2 days of rest! Tuesday we have no classes! ARAW NG MAYNILA babyyy :)) (if i was still in Zobel right now....I'd only get a day rest lol. Mababaw ba?)

Hmmm.... masaya palang magblog kapag you're just writing what you feel like writing..

I've never really been a good writer, so please bear with me.

I actually just want this to be a sort of venting machine for me :D it gives me great happiness to write these things. To share it with anyone who's willing to read this. :)

P.S. This is written in maroon in honor of University of the Philippines' Centennial Celebrations :)) UP ANG GALING MO! :P

lari611 @ 2008-05-22T13:11:00

2008-05-22T05:20:56Z

AWW DAVID COOKIE! YOU DESERVE THE IDOL CROWN!
I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS RIDICULOUSLY HAPPY!

My perfect prom date? =))

2008-04-24T08:18:41Z

Well, hello there my very very very beautiful, yummy man =))

p.s. thanks to supermeklot for inspiring me to do something like this =))

XOXO,
Lari

Bakasyonista na rin ako!

2008-04-18T10:43:49Z

I'm going to the BEACH tomorrow!!!

see you all in 2 days =)) I'll be in Laiya, San Juan, Batangas :D

lari XD

Writer's Block: More, More, More

2008-04-17T08:11:19Z

i'm having a writer's block (well, i don't really call myself a writer hahaha)....so i respond to the question: "What would you like to do more often?"

Hmmm. I've actually slept more hours than what is needed...and i usually eat more than what the Recommended Daily Allowance guide prescribes a 17-year old teenager doing nothing during the summer. So, I'd really really LOVE to do more of TRAVELING.

It's probably a frustration because the first time (and i hope not the last time) I applied for an American Visa was last 1997, and we were flat out denied. (*ow, i hate the sound of that word*). And so there went my dream of going to the land of milk and honey and endless New York skyscrapers (but hey, what did i know about USA back when i was 7 years old? Oh yeah, Disney Land! HAHAHA!).

Recently, my Auntie, from Austria, even sent us an affidavit of support so we could apply for an Austrian visa. I jumped up and down at the prospect of going to Austria and having a roundtrip to USA, but clearly, the word 'denied' clearly still haunts my Dad's memory up until today. He wouldn't dare apply another one and waste like what, hundreds of dollars? Well, I couldn't blame him, but until we try, we wouldn't really know right? Well, it's just a matter of taking risks and getting favorable outcomes.

So there. Wow. I don't have the writer's block anymore! HAHAHA! I guess i was just bored and frustrated - about leaving RP and about the RP heat.

till the next writer's block,
lari

p.s. it's not gonna push thru this summer. may be next time. hahaha =))

hello all!

2008-04-17T07:25:26Z

hahaha! i'm just trying out my new livejournal here! well, since wala talaga akong magawa, might as well be productive and make my brain cells work by writing little snippets of my boring summer. :))

and and and, idol fever is with me...i lovelovelove DAVID COOK, Michael Johns and Jason Castrooooo :P

see my mood theme! thanks supermeklot! =)) she makes really really great american idol icons! (but my icon is my creation though. haha. it looks funny =)) )